Sometimes, i wish people would understand the shit I go through. People think i'm just some attention whore who never felt pain, when I have been going through shit for years, some of my family dying or getting sick, me getting picked on and beaten up by black boys/wiggers/hispanics that act black on a daily basis, and also losing tons of friends for stupid shit. It's even worse when your "best friend" never understood you. They refuse to feel your pain, your anger, they wanna hear about themselves, nothing else. It's fucking dumb. I lost my grandmother months ago, she was like a real best friend I could say, she understood, listened, and talked with me and cared. I had no one else like her, which is why I seek out for a audience who can understand, who can relate, not just for the sake of talking, but for having someone there. I had a "best friend", I thought she would care or relate when really, she never gave a shit. She tried to make me someone i didn't want to be. She didn't understand that i had so much anger bottled up inside me, that i could never do anything about it because i would get in trouble. Just like the others, they never understood me, or even cared. Sometimes, you just gotta go your own way and be a lone wolf until someone reaches out to you, someone who cares, someone who has felt pain, sorrow and depression, someone you can really relate to. It may hurt a lot leaving your "best friend", but it's for the best.